OMFG. It sure has been a long time since i have updated my journal. My comp still isnt hooked up to the internet yet. So i have to go to the libarary to read my mail and what not. Ok, i have to tell you something, who ever reads this that is. Ok there is this guy at work. I think that he is so hot. Anyways i found out a few things about him, like he was married twice to the same chick, he had 3 kids, he is 30 yrs old, He is going through a divorce at this moment. I dont care about all that. He told me that he respects me too much to hurt him. Cuz i told him that i wanted to hook up with him and he said that he will fuck with my head and he doesnt want to do that to me. He just wants to be friends and flirt and stuff like that. Cuz i want to be with him. He just makes me so happy, i always smile when i see him. I never felt so good in my life. Yes i am still with joey, but it seems like i am not with him, we hardly see each other and when we talk on the phone it is like for maybe 5-10 mins. I just want someone who will make me happy and will want to be with me and will make time for me and whatnot, it is hard to find someone out there like that tho, it really is. I mean if you know someone like that give me his number....lol. jk. anyways he said that he wanted to hang out with me, so we will see what happens with that. I just hope that he changes his mind and wants to be with me. I just cant stand not having someone in my life that i want to marry. I dont want to marry Joe, i dont know why, but i just dont. I cant see my self with him for the rest of my life. I know that i stil have like 5 more years before i plan on getting married. I just want someone just like Anthony (The guy that i like alot) but a lil better and a lil younger, but age is just a number. So anyways, xmas was ok. I got a DVD player for my room, some money, a necklace, a snowglobe, 2 dvds and my sister bought me a cd, she bought me the new limp bizkit album. it is pretty good. New years we went to a friend of the families house and drank a lil. my dad let me can you believe that? Isnt that some shit. Well i just cant get Anthony out of my head. He is all i really think about, well for the last week that is all i think about. Well i will talk to you all later. I will see you later.