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(she said endlessly)

I am back [27 Mar 2007|04:28pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I know it has been awhile. I have been mostly on myspace. Anyways how are all of you doing?

(she said endlessly)

LONG TIME NO TALK [04 Apr 2005|03:07am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Hey all, whats up? Nothing much here, Just about to go to bed, i am so fucking tired. Yeah i have met the man of my dreams. He is so wonderful. He makes me feel like i am someone, like i can do anything. He makes me feel good about myself, even when i know i am nothing that he says to me. Foe example: He calls me smart and Beautiful. I know i am not, but he makes me believe that i am, and it is the best feeling in the world. He loves me so much and i love him just as much. No one has ever ever ever made me feel like this before.
Were haveing a baby together (even tho baby isnt gonna live). Were getting married, but not sure when, maybe in a few yrs. We want to wait a while. We have been dating for about 8 months, but i know he is the one. No one will ever make me feel the way that he does. No one will ever love me so much. I will never love anyone as much as i love my man. He is absolutly the best person in the world.
Yeah he has flaws, but who doesnt. There are things i dont like about him, but there are also somethings that he doesnt like about me. NO ONE IS PERFECT, even if they think they are, that is the persons flaw. He is really a great person. He takes care of me and i take care of him. At first our relationship was rocky, but we made it through. We always will. I love my man.

I love you andrew


Love Renea

(2 I will wait for you, she said endlessly)

[27 Apr 2004|02:13am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

oh my word it has been forever since i have written in here....so much has been going on.... these three guys told me they liked me....i got invited to a party....two of the guys i like want to fight....my sister started working with me....i got pics taken again....i gave Raul a pic of me....i got a guy i likes number, he told me to call him, which i will be doing....i worked over 60 hrs last week....all this happened in the last month....i am trying to think of anything else that happened....but i am not sure....mostly the guy things....

lates

 

 

(she said endlessly)

[25 Mar 2004|05:56pm]
[ mood | tired ]

hey all,
long time no talk....nothing much here....just been working and not working....just chillin....just always thinking about RAUL....he is always on my mind....well talk to you all later....


Lates
Nea

(she said endlessly)

[08 Mar 2004|04:54am]
hey all,
Long time no write, well i dont have much time, i have to leave to go to work soon....well nothing new here....just working mostly....


lates
Nea

(she said endlessly)

[20 Feb 2004|02:54pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Ashley
You're Ashley!

You're really good at finding yourself. So good,
in fact, that you do it often and are always
changing your image. It's cool to know thyself
and all, but try to be a little less
pretentious about it. Also, you're pretty
clingy and play the victim. Now go write a
piano ballad about this quiz.


Which Degrassi: Next Generation Character Are YOU???
brought to you by Quizilla

(she said endlessly)

[14 Feb 2004|07:12pm]

Thursday evening, i went to my ex boyfriends house. Joe L. He was my first true love. Well my sister Justine came with me. When we got there, his roomate/friend and his other friend and his friends girlfriend was there....We were watching tv for a while and talking which was kewl....After a while we went out to dinner....then went back to his house....His friend and him went into the garage to smoke his cig....he invited me to come with them, so i went and then his friend left and it was just the two of us....it was awesome....we were talking, then my sister came out to say she wanted to go home. I told her we would leave soon. Well she left and we started to make out....it was so awesome....cuz i miss his kiss....He is a good kisser. Damn i miss it. Anyways so then we left and he invited me to come over again on Friday....so i come over and we are watching tv (again) then he just kissed me and it isnt even for like a min then he says i'll sit down now....WTF? I mean come on now? Anyways....Well then he has to leave. Well i emailed him and he said....

"I want to be completely honest with you.  I want to put some things up front.  Most and foremost I want want to be friends.  I dont want a relationship right now.  I enjoyed what we did also and am up for more.  Shoot to be honest I'm up for whatever you want.  Sorry about the other day when you were over.  Your body language was telling me that you didnt want to do anything so I didnt.  I dont know what I have going on on tues and wednesday yet, I will have to get back with you on that. 
 
Talk to you later
Joe"
 
Well i guess i will talk to you all later....
 
Lates
Nea

(she said endlessly)

[07 Feb 2004|12:20am]
[ mood | satisfied ]

READ WHAT JOE WROTE TO MECollapse )

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[02 Feb 2004|10:02pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

OMFG,
 
That guy Anthony that I talked about, I haven’t seen him in like 2-3 weeks. I miss him so Damn much. I was talking to this chick at work and I told her that I would so have his kids. I would have like 4-5 guys kids.  LOL. Especially this guy names Raul. SO DAMN SEXY. I would have 80 of his kids as long as they looked like him.
Guys at work I would have kids with in order:
1. Raul
2. Anthony
3. Jason
4. Max
5. Bryan
Famous ppl I would have kids with, in no order, cuz it is hard to choose:
1. Elijah Wood
2. Johnny Depp
3. Colin Farrell
4. Leonardo Dicaprio
5. Ryan Phillippe

Yummy men there. I am just so boy crazy it isn’t even funny. I mostly like Mexican now. On the list  of ppl that I work with 2 of them are White. I just love hot guys, but I have talked to 3 of them and 2 of them I like their personalities. But they are so beautiful. Anyways….nothing much here. Please go to my thing…. _claimage_ . Please. Anyways talk to you all later….

Lates
Nea

(she said endlessly)

[01 Feb 2004|12:23am]
[ mood | excited ]

OMG I THINK I GOT IT NOW....Collapse )

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[01 Feb 2004|12:16am]

SOME MORE QUIZES THAT I TOOKCollapse )

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[31 Jan 2004|01:51am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

_claimage_ go here and claim stuff. Anyways....How is everyone? I am doing ok. I just wanted to say hi and i will have an update soon.

(she said endlessly)

[20 Jan 2004|12:44am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Quizes....Lots of themCollapse )

(she said endlessly)

[18 Jan 2004|01:42pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Hey all Whats up all? Nothing much here. Just chillin. I have been really busy lately. I have been working. I am so tired. I really like Anthony, like alot and so does this one chick that i work with and it makes me so sad. Cuz he told me that he doesnt want to be with me, cuz he respects me, that is kewl, but i want something with him. I mean friends is awesome, but he hardly talks to me. Arent friends supposed to talk? I mean come one. If he want to date this slut, then he can just tell me. That way i wont worry about being friends with him. That sounds bad, but it is the hard aweful truth. It wil be hard to not be friends with him, but.... Well i will let you all go. Talk to you all later Lates Nea

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[08 Jan 2004|08:56pm]
[ mood | sick ]

OMG.

Anthony said that he wanted to be friends. That is kewl., but i will always have a thing for him. He is just so awesome. He told this chick that he likes me, but he doesnt want to hurt me. But i will wait for him as long as i can. I will wait till he gets over his divorce. But i cant wait forever, so i hope that it is soon, cuz i want him so much. Nothing like that, i want a relationship with him, not just for the sex. I think that he is someone that i can have something with, but not tell my parents about for a while.  I am talking to my ex, and when i talk to him i get thoes feelings back  that i had for him so long ago. He was the first one that i loved, like alot. But anyways, that is all i have to say, so i will leave you.

 

Lates

Nea

(she said endlessly)

[07 Jan 2004|09:40pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Who Will You Marry? by Sari
Name
DateDecember 15, 2045
SpousePaul Walker
Price of Wedding$102,610
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

(she said endlessly)

[07 Jan 2004|04:01pm]
[ mood | blank ]

OMFG. It sure has been a long time since i have updated my journal. My comp still isnt hooked up to the internet yet. So i have to go to the libarary to read my mail and what not. Ok, i have to tell you something, who ever reads this that is. Ok there is this guy at work. I think that he is so hot. Anyways i found out a few things about him, like he was married twice to the same chick, he had 3 kids, he is 30 yrs old, He is going through a divorce at this moment. I dont care about all that. He told me that he respects me too much to hurt him. Cuz i told him that i wanted to hook up with him and he said that he will fuck with my head and he doesnt want to do that to me. He just wants to be friends and flirt and stuff like that. Cuz i want to be with him. He just makes me so happy, i always smile when i see him. I never felt so good in my life. Yes i am still with joey, but it seems like i am not with him, we hardly see each other and when we talk on the phone it is like for maybe 5-10 mins. I just want someone who will make me happy and will want to be with me and will make time for me and whatnot, it is hard to find someone out there like that tho, it really is. I mean if you know someone like that give me his number....lol. jk. anyways he said that he wanted to hang out with me, so we will see what happens with that. I just hope that he changes his mind and wants to be with me.  I just cant stand not having someone in my life that i want to marry. I dont want to marry Joe, i dont know why, but i just dont. I cant see my self with him for the rest of my life. I know that i stil have like 5 more years before i plan on getting married. I just want someone just like Anthony (The guy that i like alot) but a lil better and a lil younger, but age is just a number. So anyways, xmas was ok. I got a DVD player for my room, some money, a necklace, a snowglobe, 2 dvds and my sister bought me a cd, she bought me the new limp bizkit album. it is pretty good. New years we went to a friend of the families house and drank a lil. my dad let me can you believe that? Isnt that some shit. Well i just cant get Anthony out of my head. He is all i really think about, well for the last week that is all i think about. Well i will talk to you all later. I will see you later.

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hey [12 Dec 2003|08:15pm]
[ mood | numb ]

I AM A BAD PERSON. WHY AM I EVEN HERE. I SHOULD JUST NOT LIVE ANYMORE. I AM NOT MAKING ANY OF YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ME LIKE MOST PPL SAY THAT IS THEY ONLY REASON WHY I AM SAYING STUFF LIKE THAT, NO THAT IS NOT THE CASE. I AM TRULY A BAD PERSON. LIKE I TOLD ROXY, AS SOON AS I GET ENOUGH MONEY I AM GOING TO MOVE AND I AM GOING TO MOVE BY MYSELF AWAY FROM FRIENDS AND FAMILY SOMEWHERE WHERE NO ONE CAN FIND ME JUST START A NEW LIFE, ONE OF MY OWN, ONE WHERE I CAN MAKE MY OWN CHOICES AND MISTAKES AND WHATEVER I WANT. I NEED ONE WHERE I WONT WRECK OR RUIN ANYONES LIFE. WHEREVER I MOVE TOO I WILL START A NEW LIFE ALL BY MYSELF. I JUST HATE MESSING UP PPLS LIVES, CUZ I SEEM TO BE DOING THAT ALOT LATELY, FIRST OFF, MY MOM AND DADS, SECOND MY SISTER JENS AND THIRD JOEYS. WELL THAT IS WHAT I AM THINKING. I JUST SEEM TO BE A MISTAKE IN LIFE ITSELF. IT HURTS TO LIVE.

SOMEONE NOT ME
I JUST WISH THAT I WAS SOMEONE ELSE. SOMEONE WHO ISNT ME. SOMEONE PERFECT. SOMEONE NOT ME. SOMEONE NICE, SOMEONE NOT MEAN. SOMEONE STRONG, SOMEONE NOT WEAK. SOMEONE SMART, SOMEONE NOT DUMB. SOMEONE REAL, SOMEONE NOT FAKE. SOMEONE OUTSPOKEN, SOMEONE NOT SHY. SOMEONE BEAUTIFUL, SOMEONE NOT UGLY. SOMEONE THIN, SOMEONE NOT FAT. SOMEONE LIKE YOU,SOMEONE NOT ME.

THAT WAS A POEM THAT I JUST MADE UP JUST NOW IN LIKE 2 MINS FLAT. SOMETHING ABOUT HOW I AM FELLING AT THIS MOMENT. I THINK THAT I SHOULD BE IN A SAD OR BAD MOOD MORE OFTEN, I WRITE ALOT OF POEMS WHEN I AM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD, FOR SOME REASON. ANYWAYS SO YEAH. I JUST FEEL LIKE CRYING ALL THE TIME. I JUST WANT TO DIE MOST OF THE TIME AND FOR NO REASON EITHER.

LATES
NEA

(she said endlessly)

[11 Dec 2003|04:32am]
[ mood | sick ]

Hey
Man i am sick. I have a cold. My Throat, head, nose, and body hurt, and what makes it worse is that i am going to work. I know that i should stay home and rest, but i need the money. That is the only reason why i am going. I need the money, since i spent way way too much on xmas gifts and i still, need one more and i have no money right now, so that is why i need it so much. My last weeks check is gonna be a good one, but i have my car payment and insurance that i still need to pay, well i have to give my mom 41.25 a week, and my carpayment is 180.00 a month. Anyways what is everyone going to do for xmas? where is everyone going? I am staying here for xmas eve and xmas, but the day after i am going to my aunts house which is like 8-10 hrs from here. in Napa Valley. Nothern California. Man do i feel bad right now. Anyways we will be there from friday to sunday. I think that is all that i have to say for now. Talk at here later.

Lates
Nea
Roxy i will get your gift as soon as i can and when i get it i might have to bring it to you on a weekend, cuz i will be working early during the week and when i am done, i just want to go home.

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OMFG [07 Dec 2003|09:47pm]
OMFG.

Can you believe this conversation that i had with my boyfriend.

Here it is right here....what do you think about it?Collapse )

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